Frustration...Sucks

So, I've been learning how to make layouts. You will be witnessing this very soon, I do hope. I'll playing around with this blog's layout until I can get it right. Then I will proceed with my professional blog.

Sigh.
I don't know why but I get so curious as to what is going on on the 'other' side of the world. I read a little bit of the older journal from HIS new girl. I didn't want to read, so I skimmed through. I knew I would get caught up and angry. I did however read one whole post from her old journal, saying how he showed her mom's blog and was disturbed by the whole thing. How the 'seed of doubt' was planted now and she instantly told him that she didn't want anything else to do with it, to never see it again, that she thought that they just fed off of each other. I was proud, thinking she wasn't as silly/obsessive as I had thought (forgetting it was an OLD post). But, she then posted a few random posts (didn't really read into her life) and then one whole post about how my mom is this and how she's a nut job and how everyone sees through her because 'nothing ever came of it' from CASA or the courts. <---Obsessed! Which is what I was starting to feel! Obsessed with trying to prove them, HER wrong. But only in my head. I decided I'm done with it. She's going to be that way and all we can do is say, "Well, if they see RIGHT THROUGH it, wouldn't HE have the kids by now? Hmmm?"

The end.
That's it. That's all I have to say.

Anyways! Today... We're suppose to be doing some competition at a casino around here. Not sure what is going on with the gang, I guess I should call one of them or something. It isn't until later anyways. Maybe we'll hit the club-scene for a few drinks or something after Curtis gets off work. Who knows who knows!

I feel too down hearted to blog anymore. Just thinking about how long it's taken with this whole custody battle tires me. And to think we haven't done anything else yet. Nevada is a horrible legal state, or rather Carson City's legal stuff is horrible. CASA is ran by easily persuaded people, easily blinded by fronts. I don't know. I suppose it will all get better soon. The girls are growing up into beautiful...girls, lol, and every day I spend away from them sorta really sucks. Venice has become one of my top best friends. And Kaydance! Wow, she's so smart, it is silly. But she still has that blonde underneath. Except for the whole, "Aunt Jen said there was going to be a new moon next month and I was like, 'oh cooool'."
"You have no idea what that is, do you?" I asked.
She laughed and shrugged.

Silly girl.
I love my family.