Utterly Miserable

I just want to live somewhere warm almost all year round. I've been looking for places where it snows at least in a 50 mile+ area, but it isn't good enough. Australia seems like a dream, from what I've been finding out. It's like Canada and has free health care. They get paid A LOT more out there than us, and it's warm. Plus, it does snow in some parts.

Curtis wont move somewhere only to have drive more than hour to snowboard. I understand it's the only real sport he loves, the only time he feels really happy, you know? But I'm so miserable here. I can't stand the cold. It hurts. I was discussing the situation with someone who didn't really know us both. I needed someone to listen, not someone to tell me to leave Curtis. I love Curtis.

I was telling him what you told me about living in Australia, you know, semi-serious but really just to say it and see what he thought. And he practically told me that I didn't care about him because I was taking him away from the only thing he truly loves by taking him more than hour away from snow. And when I tried to explain that I was really unhappy in winter weather he said, "So, you want to move somewhere always warm and make me miserable."

.____. I just don't see how this will work out. I don't want to break up with him but I'm so miserable in snow. I like to look at it, that's it.

Yeah, I told him everything you told me! Even that he could still work somewhere he knows really well. But he just... I don't know. He got really upset with me and so, I jokingly said, "Well, darn! Guess we should go our separate ways then!" And he yelled at me and asked why would I even say that. I told him I didn't mean, that I loved him, but I WON'T live my whole life somewhere it snows. He said he knew that. And I said, I refuse to even spend the majority of my life in snow.

And he told me that he wasn't willing to live to anywhere where it takes an hour or more to get to a resort. And I said, well, an hour isn't so bad for something you love. And then he told me that I haven't even tried anything to like the winter and I explained I hated the cold and there was nothing that would I enjoy, much less can afford to enjoy. ._.

Normally he's like Luke. Gives me a logic answer. But this time it was just a flat out, "No snow, no going."

So I got hurt and told him that I'm living my life here in the snow with him, away from the one thing I really love to. The ocean!

._______. I can't stop crying.

I'll figure something out.
Just keep praying on it and see how it works.

Alexis